I don't like people cancelling their appointment with me. Especially:
1. When it's on the D-Day
2. When it's bcs of something selfish.

When I chose to spend some of my time with a friend, it's not because of what we're going to do. It's bcs I will have some times to spend with my friends. So please bear this in mind before you make appointment that you will cancel at D-Day. I've cleared all my schedule to meet up with you. if you have another appointment, or if you're on a diet, make up your mind BEFORE the d-day.
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Being On Time

I hate it when people can't manage their time well. For me, if you have an appointment at 12 PM, your goal is to reach the place at 11.45 AM the latest. Always spare some time in case of unexpected delays. In some cases being late is not detrimental (such as going to a birthday party). I can tolerate that. However, when it comes to events or meeting with tight schedules, that is the worst thing you can do for people who have planned it and people who have other plans.

What I hate more then late people are people who intentionally came late because "everyone else will also be late". For your information, I'm NOT like that. Please respect that. As a result, a lot of people are forced to make an appointment under the calculation that the "actual" appointment is the hour after that.

Lastly, I hate it when people who are late scold people who are "more" late. Coming late by 5 minutes is also detrimental. That is not a reason for you to scold at people who are 30 minutes late. You are both late, so don't try to blame it on others.
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Juxtaposition

Do you have that voice in your head that keeps on telling you that you're not good enough?

This is a story of mine.

I have always lived a life of comparison. How could I not? My parents are both multi-talented in their own ways. I was born along with my younger brother, and we were compared with each other right after my first breath. 

For every mistake that I've done in the past, I remembered the first thing people told me; "Ian didn't do it, why did you do that?" or "Ian can do it well. Why can't you?". It somehow created a mindset that something is not considered right/wrong/good/bad in itself, but when it is juxtaposed with what other people do. As a result, I have grown into a person who constantly compared himself with others. Not only to my brother, but to everyone I see as an equal, be it classmate, friends, siblings, or colleagues.

It was very stressful to be that kind of person. In many ways, I have always felt ashamed of myself. I was ashamed of powerless I am when compared with my friends who constantly inspired other people, develop their abundant stocks of talents, and who can impress other people with "populist" talents. Seeing someone who has everything breaks my heart, not because I hate the person, but because I can see myself standing there being completely pathetic in comparison. That voice in my head kept on telling me that I will never be as good as him/her. It told me that all of my ambition to surpass him/her will be futile. That voice makes me doubt myself in every possible way.

I think it's time to stop imposing other people's standard on myself. I know whose standard can be burdened on me, and I refuse to take more burden than what I can bear. Bear in mind that I'm not giving up. It's just that know I realize; I can win in my own way.

Hair Color

So I got this weird hair color. It's a very dark brown (almost black), but if you cast enough sunlight, it becomes a weird brown. It makes me look like a tourist :p

Once I changed my BBM display picture into a picture of me and my friends. My hair was a very striking brown. Then a friend commented on the picture "aldi rambut lo kayak mas-mas salon". It's just sad.

Oh well I love my hair just the way it is.


Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia

When one has accepted the fact that the sea and the sky will never meet, that's when one could realize that their co-existence will create the splendid display of horizon stretched across the blue yonder.

A piece of anger

Disclaimer: This is purely my opinion. I am not an expert.

In a relationship, when you expect your partner to invest a lot, it's only fair for you to do the same.

You can't expect someone to stay committed if you act like you're easier than kindergarten pop quiz.

It's just cruel if you want them to always be there for you, while you can't be there for them.

Yes, the rule applies EVEN IF your partner has consented to it.

It's not about the agreement.

It's about how you respect what you expect.

Rejuvenation

Just came back from a one week vacation in Bandung. I know it's not THAT far away to be considered as a getaway for some people. However, I found what I need; some days off to rejuvenate myself. Now I'm back on my feet ready to go all-out for what lies ahead
Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia

Believe

This is not the name of an album.

It has been a year since that day. It was the day I got my UN result. Let's just say i'm proud of my result, but not as proud when comparing it with others. It was not the happiest moment of my life. Later that day, Ian and I went to the Church for a youth event. There's this special service with bazaars and stuff. On our way there, I remembered checking my Twitter, and found out that the result of SNMPTN Undangan will announced sooner; in two hours.

What is SNMPTN Undangan? It's basically a universal university application. Selected students from all around Indonesia applied for max. 2 Universities, and 2 majors for each university. I applied for Universitas Indonesia, with Information System as my first priority and Law as my second one. I did not apply for another University, because I simply don't want to end up somewhere else. I heard a LOT of information that UI will not bother to select students who enlist a major in the second priority. So if that is true, let's just assume I only applied for IS.

Back to the story. So it was the most nerve-wrecking two hours I have ever felt. You know what? I failed. I did not make it to both majors. I was devastated. I read the announcement 1 hour before the event started, and i lost all my mental power to continue with the show. However, my friends and my Kakak Gembala (i don't know how to English it up) calmed me down, and I attended the event.

Thank God I was also prepared for taking the test. Therefore, I took the SNMPTN Tulis test, and got accepted in Unversitas Indonesia, Information System. Right after finishing the test, I switched gears and started studying Social Science. I took the SIMAK UI Test (Independent selection by UI), and I was accepted to Universitas Indonesia, International Class Program Majoring in Law. I got accepted in the campus that rejected me earlier. I have no option back then, but at that moment I have the liberty to choose my own path.

If I was accepted at SNMPTN Undangan, it will most probably be Information System. Even if I got accepted in Law, I will be accepted in the Regular Program. Not that it's bad, but it's not the perfect scenario. Now I am a proud Law student of International Class. I loved everything about it. It's perfect; and it's something that I will NEVER get if UI accepted me through SNMPTN Undangan. If I was accepted through Undangan, I would have never took the other two test. I would never be as happy as I am right now.

The point is; no one knows which way is the best. What we thought as a huge failure can turn out to be the greatest thing that has ever happened to us. The only thing we can do, is to believe that everything happened for a reason, and to never stop walking.

Confusion

I'm kinda confused. At one point, I was told that I could come across as annoying because of my personality. However, when I said that I want to change, I was told, "yeah right..." Which means that I won't be able to because.... That's my personality.

So in the end, I was told that my personality is annoying, and I can't do anything about it.

I'm confused. Don't you tell people that they're annoying because you expect them to change? Then why are you saying that they can't change at all? Why do you discourage them from becoming a better person?
Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia

Friends

There are a lot of things that brought people together. People are drawn to each other because there are similar qualities that they commonly share. This is the reason why some people can be besties, while other will aways stay apart.

Being trapped in the same boat for 2 month sounds like a good start of a romantic novel. All of us are lost, jailed, and exhausted during those months. I'm just grateful that during those times, I got a very good company to share the ride.

I love you all.

Apparently, there is a fine line that separates the sky and the sea. It makes both realm so close, yet so far apart.

Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia

Blue

I am as blue as a deep ocean.
Calm on the surface, restless in the middle, and dark at the bottom.
You are as blue as a bright sky.
Illuminating,  invigorating, clear, though cloudy at times.
Does that mean we are compatible?
Or does that mean we are that far apart from each other?

Can't stress enough on how much I love my institution

Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia

What will you choose?

Imagine that you have made a commitment with a friend to complete an assignment together. You're well informed of the assignments you were committed to, and you thought that you can handle it. However, somewhere along the way, just snapped; you can't take it anymore, you're angry, you're tired, and you just want to run away. Continuing this assignment will only make it worse; you won't do your job well, and you will end up humiliating yourself and/or feeling guilty. However, abandoning your commitment means losing the trust of your friends, with whom you have agreed to complete the assignment together. What will you choose?


















My answer: I won't make promises that I know I will question in the future.

Contemplation Part II

Last year around these months, also at Nyepi, I came to a realization that a huge part of my life was no longer mine. I was being controlled, and I don't like it. I made a breakthrough back then. I gathered the remaining bits of courage to confront what I was afraid of for a long time. I don't know how it really went, but for me it went quite well. I proved that no human should ever control me without my consent. Now, I can gladly say that I am enjoying my life. I have conquered the stolen parts, and now my life is truly mine. I can give it to whoever I see fit. I choose Jesus Christ :)

Contemplation

Today marks the start of Nyepi Day (at least in Balinese time). It's a day where the island of gods rests. Where darkness and solitude envelops every corners. Despite the fact that I'm not practicing Hinduism, I like Nyepi very much. It's a day where I can be closer with my family. It's a day where we will stock up foods for the night. It's the day where I used play video games all day. Most importantly, it's the day where I am reminded that I am living in one of the most beautiful islands in the world.

I love the darkness of Nyepi, because only such darkness will reveal the true beauty of the night sky. The darkness paved the way for the stars to display their magnificent radiance. Only at that dark times I can feel how close the heaven is to earth.

I'm not living in Bali anymore, probably forever. However, when I looked back to that moment, a part of me wished that life could be that easy again. I hope that life could be that tranquil, and free from disturbing noises. I hope that in every dark moments, I could find hopes and joy emblazoned in every corner.

Happy Nyepi Day :)

Not a good way to start the week

I crashed at my friend's place, slept at 3 a.m, woke up at 6.30, rushed back to my place, took a shower and stuff at 7, walked to campus at 7.30, waited for an hour, and got informed that class (the only class today) is cancelled.
Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia

The upcoming UN

Ujian Nasional dibuat dengan banyak paket untuk mencegah kecurangan. As far as I'm concerned, that's the biggest (if not the only) reason. So, I know what to expect dari orang2 yang luar biasa senang simply karena UN ga jadi 20 paket, tapi 5.

When the story of your life is facing some bad chapters, remember that the story will not end until it reached its happy ending.

Talents

Last month, I had the chance to coach some very talented students. They're my juniors back at high school. I am honored to be able to witness their growth. I'm not only talking about physique and intelligence. I'm talking about maturity, emotional, and spiritual growth altogether.

My juniors were preparing for a big competition at FE UI. I remembered those times when I share my stories with them. I reembered those times when I saw their tears of despair.

However, I kept my trust in them. These gifted kids have my full support. I prayed for their success. I still do, up until now.

In the end, they proved their worth in the competition. They won it big time. I'm so proud of them.

Top Row (L to R): Geri, Jordan

Bottom Row (L to R): Denny, Alanna, Utami, Dwiki

Geri, Denny, and Alanna are my debate kids. Look at how happy they are :)

Hello, weekend!

The first week of the 2nd semester is done. In my opinion, the classes are mostly equipped with professional lecturers. Most of them are proficient in speaking English. That is good, bcs basically that is what we paid for. However, we're going to be bombarded with assignments. I hope I can endure it. However, now is the time for me to enjoy my weekend. (Not really)

For me, the best team is a group comprised of the best individuals.

The battles between ideologies are the ones that could not be solved without a save compromy from both sides.

Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia

Leaving Bogor

Today marks the end of my long holiday. Right now, I'm writing whilst on the road to Depok. With a new smile on my face, a clear vision in my head, and a delicious lunchbox on my head, let the new semester begin!

The dawn of a new year

Happy lunar new year, everyone!

It's a pleasure to have this chance. New year is the moment for us to really tale a step back, remind ourselves about the blessings we have received, and to start anew. I hope I can pull myself together and continue to pursue my dreams :)

I hope you remember

Remember those times when the future is yours and yours alone?
Remember those times when you do something because you love it?
Remember those times when you're still yourself, and not somebody else?
Remember those times when dreams are dreams, and not expectations?

I do, and I hope you will too.

Dedicated to my dearest, funniest, and dumbest, Aga.

Reality

At last, the holiday is ending. I have just left the paradise I called home. It's goin to be a while before I will be able to smell that air again. I'm about to re-enter reality. Campus, assignments, debates, and other activities that may or may not excite me. However, I'm going to take the bright side: everything will be better. My retreat and encounter with families and friends have greatly rejuvenate my passion. In the end, that's what vacation is all about: a retreat from daily routines to restore your energy and spirit. Therefore, I can safely declare that I am back, and ready for more.

Pure Happiness

This is beyond any form of compensation.

Thank you, E-Club Foursma.

A pause and a change

It has been more than one year since I posted on this blog. A part of me thinks it's just because I'm lazy. The other part, however, believes that the hiatus was caused because I was in fact, changing at that time. I can feel some differences inside myself now.

To start, I think I'm more mature right now. I am not the emotional and angry person I used to be. Being accepted into one of the biggest law schools in indonesia helped. I know how to behave rationally. That doesn't mean I've lost my crazy side completely, though. That side will be back, that's for sure.

Next, I am more aware of myself. Not only in terms of physical appearance and clothings, but also how I project myself in front of other people. I know it's highly dependant to what other people perceive. Then again, it's always good to know what you're saying.

Lastly, I am now a supporter of personal joy and happiness. I'm no longer a believer of inherited responsibility. I believe that everyone have the right to do something because they like what they do, instead of fulfilling the wish and expectation of others.

All in all, this is a change that I am experiencing. In my opinion, all are good changes. I hope that the next time I pause my writings, I can come back stronger, more mature, and ready to write some more interesting chapters.

RNW.
Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia

If I am as blue as a deep ocean, while you are as blue as a bright sky, does it mean that we belong together? Or does it mean that we're just that far away from each other?

Revaldi Wirabuana
Faculty of Law
Universitas Indonesia