Heart is what connects your Brain and your Hand. When you brain is trying to make excuses, your heart tells you to accept. When your hand is trying to perpetrate, your heart prevent it. When your brain causes your hand to do what is wrong, your heart commands your brain to command your hand to do anything in your power to make things right again.
But what controls the heart?
That, to me can only be explained by what you believe.
For me, the answer is faith.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
4 Sides of Me
Today I wanna talk about myself...
Well maybe the word "myselves" is more suitable.
Why? Because there's a lot of me, and sometime you barely notice that we're actually a single person.
Let me introdice you to my friends.
1. The Cheerful
He is someone who is very happy and enthusiastic. He can laugh at almost anything, and sometimes make good jokes about something unimportant (ex. Himself). He's so active that sometime ppl called him as "hyperactive" or "crazy". This guy talks a lot, usually in Bahasa Indonesia. Not only this guy talks a LOT, he also talks VERY fast and sometimes very loud. He's honest and sometimes ignorant. He would not be ashamed to admit his own weakness (the opposite of The Desperate who do the exact contrary). If you're lucky to get a chance to chat with him thru BBM, he's the one who always use emoticons in the end of almost every sentences.
2. The Desperate
He is timid, pathetic, and blue person. He always see himself based on his weakness.a very unstable guy who think that he's worthless. One simple word/sentence/image can leave him severely depressed. He oftenly spends his time thinking and fantasizing about what if the past was not as how it is now.his biggest dream is to rewind the flow of time, so he could fix the countless stupid mistakes that he made. He rarely speak, but his thoughts speaks more than any word could express. His endless cries can also be silently heard at night. He contemplate himself mostly in English. His BBMs are short, unexpressive, and sometimes a cliffhanger.
3. The Furious
The sarcastic bitch. He never even have a glance of thought of what would it feels like to be the one listening his harsh words. He have 2 favorite modus operandi to release his anger. One, by speaking in a very sarcastic way. Two, by shouting VERY loud to his source of conflict. He always thinks that he's the right one. Always trying to find your mistakes, even sometimes using mistakes that have no correlation at all to the conflict. He wouldn't even give a damn to BBM you. He prefer to use the social networking sites to publish his sarcasm. He thinks in indonesian, speaks in Indonesian, but writes in English.
4. The Determined
He's the serious one. He studies, he debates, he reads. He is the one that takes over most of Aldi's professional moments (as a student, and as a debater). He's the one who have many goals set in front of him. He spend his time thinking why everything is the way it is until now. He's the one that formulate and confirms the existance of the four sides of aldi. He's the one who is concerned about why japanese don't speak L while balinese don't speak F or V. These thoughts are the things that drives Aldi into his usual daydreams. He is so obsessed with games. You can see him trying to focus on beating a game. He's also has a good imagination. That's why you can see him draw things on his books, without letting anyone know what he's drawing.
The four Aldis existed. They are inseparable. They're one. They are the ones who make Aldi who he was today. Their growth per se is to be delightfully anticipated, but their growth as a single human is something that hold even a more beautiful mystery.
Let it unfold naturally.
Sincerely,
The Determined.
Well maybe the word "myselves" is more suitable.
Why? Because there's a lot of me, and sometime you barely notice that we're actually a single person.
Let me introdice you to my friends.
1. The Cheerful
He is someone who is very happy and enthusiastic. He can laugh at almost anything, and sometimes make good jokes about something unimportant (ex. Himself). He's so active that sometime ppl called him as "hyperactive" or "crazy". This guy talks a lot, usually in Bahasa Indonesia. Not only this guy talks a LOT, he also talks VERY fast and sometimes very loud. He's honest and sometimes ignorant. He would not be ashamed to admit his own weakness (the opposite of The Desperate who do the exact contrary). If you're lucky to get a chance to chat with him thru BBM, he's the one who always use emoticons in the end of almost every sentences.
2. The Desperate
He is timid, pathetic, and blue person. He always see himself based on his weakness.a very unstable guy who think that he's worthless. One simple word/sentence/image can leave him severely depressed. He oftenly spends his time thinking and fantasizing about what if the past was not as how it is now.his biggest dream is to rewind the flow of time, so he could fix the countless stupid mistakes that he made. He rarely speak, but his thoughts speaks more than any word could express. His endless cries can also be silently heard at night. He contemplate himself mostly in English. His BBMs are short, unexpressive, and sometimes a cliffhanger.
3. The Furious
The sarcastic bitch. He never even have a glance of thought of what would it feels like to be the one listening his harsh words. He have 2 favorite modus operandi to release his anger. One, by speaking in a very sarcastic way. Two, by shouting VERY loud to his source of conflict. He always thinks that he's the right one. Always trying to find your mistakes, even sometimes using mistakes that have no correlation at all to the conflict. He wouldn't even give a damn to BBM you. He prefer to use the social networking sites to publish his sarcasm. He thinks in indonesian, speaks in Indonesian, but writes in English.
4. The Determined
He's the serious one. He studies, he debates, he reads. He is the one that takes over most of Aldi's professional moments (as a student, and as a debater). He's the one who have many goals set in front of him. He spend his time thinking why everything is the way it is until now. He's the one that formulate and confirms the existance of the four sides of aldi. He's the one who is concerned about why japanese don't speak L while balinese don't speak F or V. These thoughts are the things that drives Aldi into his usual daydreams. He is so obsessed with games. You can see him trying to focus on beating a game. He's also has a good imagination. That's why you can see him draw things on his books, without letting anyone know what he's drawing.
The four Aldis existed. They are inseparable. They're one. They are the ones who make Aldi who he was today. Their growth per se is to be delightfully anticipated, but their growth as a single human is something that hold even a more beautiful mystery.
Let it unfold naturally.
Sincerely,
The Determined.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Unfair?
Sometimes I do think that the world is a bit unfair... why? bcs see myself with a lot of weakness, and that makes me think: why do everyone have what have?
About my weaknesses :
1. I hate sports (I can't even do push-ups)
2. I am not the type of ppl who easily makes new friends.
3. I am VERY lazy.
4. I'm a perfectionist (in a bad way)
5. I can't speak Balinese (it hampers my social life)
But then I realised, the more I think about my weakness, the more I forget about my strength, which actually existed, and is there to help me in my own way.
About my strengths :
1. Despite my nervousness, it never stopped me from speaking in public.
2. I am a very happy guy, and sometimes I can make other ppl happy as well.
3. I am a perfectionist (In a good way)
4. i can speak english (it is a good capital for my future)
5. i have my own Faith. for me it is an unreplaceable strength that keeps moving me forward.
So is the world unfair? yes it is. in every single way imagineable. but whoever can play with the unfairness and make it through, he will be MORE than a conqueror.
About my weaknesses :
1. I hate sports (I can't even do push-ups)
2. I am not the type of ppl who easily makes new friends.
3. I am VERY lazy.
4. I'm a perfectionist (in a bad way)
5. I can't speak Balinese (it hampers my social life)
But then I realised, the more I think about my weakness, the more I forget about my strength, which actually existed, and is there to help me in my own way.
About my strengths :
1. Despite my nervousness, it never stopped me from speaking in public.
2. I am a very happy guy, and sometimes I can make other ppl happy as well.
3. I am a perfectionist (In a good way)
4. i can speak english (it is a good capital for my future)
5. i have my own Faith. for me it is an unreplaceable strength that keeps moving me forward.
So is the world unfair? yes it is. in every single way imagineable. but whoever can play with the unfairness and make it through, he will be MORE than a conqueror.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Un-Affirmative Action...
Do you know about affirmative action?
It is supposed to mean, "policies that take factors including "race, color, religion, gender , or origin into consideration in order to benefit an underrepresented group".
So for example, to proliferate the education of African-American people to develop their general education level, Harvard University provide a MINIMUM quota for this community in their classes.
But what happened in my school is the exact opposite.
Under the reason "to proliferate general level of education,", they instead apply a MAXIMUM quota for student outside of Denpasar.
For me that is so unfair.
I completely understand their goal. This system is proposed by Diknas, because they want to make sure that not all smart student coagulate in Denpasar. By applying this system, smart student can actually opt back to local High School, therefore reducing brain drain from a certain regency.
But analyzing deeper, we see that it harms the right of the particular student to choose where they would like to study.
Take my junior in SMP as an example.
She's very smart, but she's not accepeted at my school. Why?
Because she's from Kuta. My school only accept 11 students outside Denpasar, and she's #12, with only a 0.09 margin from the #11 student.
But most importantly, without this system is applied, my junior will be ranked #66 overall, a VERY high standing, remembering that there are more than 500 people enrolling, and about 250 got accepted.
She's supposed to be happy now, but that smile was taken away from her because of other people.
Is this what do you call Affirmative Action?
For me, Affirmative Action should give benefit to those who are capable, but cast aside due to discrimination in the past.
This is basically giving benefit to those who may not be as capable, but in the mainstream community (Denpasar).
It is clearly against the law of equality (if there's any).
What do YOU think about it?
It is supposed to mean, "policies that take factors including "race, color, religion, gender , or origin into consideration in order to benefit an underrepresented group".
So for example, to proliferate the education of African-American people to develop their general education level, Harvard University provide a MINIMUM quota for this community in their classes.
But what happened in my school is the exact opposite.
Under the reason "to proliferate general level of education,", they instead apply a MAXIMUM quota for student outside of Denpasar.
For me that is so unfair.
I completely understand their goal. This system is proposed by Diknas, because they want to make sure that not all smart student coagulate in Denpasar. By applying this system, smart student can actually opt back to local High School, therefore reducing brain drain from a certain regency.
But analyzing deeper, we see that it harms the right of the particular student to choose where they would like to study.
Take my junior in SMP as an example.
She's very smart, but she's not accepeted at my school. Why?
Because she's from Kuta. My school only accept 11 students outside Denpasar, and she's #12, with only a 0.09 margin from the #11 student.
But most importantly, without this system is applied, my junior will be ranked #66 overall, a VERY high standing, remembering that there are more than 500 people enrolling, and about 250 got accepted.
She's supposed to be happy now, but that smile was taken away from her because of other people.
Is this what do you call Affirmative Action?
For me, Affirmative Action should give benefit to those who are capable, but cast aside due to discrimination in the past.
This is basically giving benefit to those who may not be as capable, but in the mainstream community (Denpasar).
It is clearly against the law of equality (if there's any).
What do YOU think about it?
Disappointment and Hope
National Schools Debating Championship 2011.
If any of you are debaters, you should've known this term.
Yes, it is one of the most prestigious national English debating competition.
If you don't know what it is, let's just say it's the English-counterpart of OSN.
Disdikpora held this event annually to select the national champion among the 33 provinces in the archipelago, and to compose a brand-new team from the whole participant. It's Team Indonesia, that will be sent to compete in the world's most prestigious high school debating competition, the World Schools Debating Championship.
As you may know, I am one of the participant of NSDC 2011. Together with Ian and Bika, we are Team Bali.
We are confident enough in this competition.
Well, we don't really say that we're going to win the whole thing, but we're confident enough that we're going to be able to go far in this comp.
Why? because we had just won ALSA National English Competition 2011, another prestigious national debate tournament.
But with that confidence, comes a burden.
I'm afraid to lose. I'm burdened with the title of Champion and Best Speaker.
Anyway, when we compete at the Nationals, it started out a bit rough.
We kept on under-performing , we don't think our debate is good enough to achieve good scores.
But luckily, our team manage to win 5 out of 5 rounds in the preliminary, and manage to break through the preliminary round, and gained the First Position among the 16 team that will proceed to the Elimination round.
We swept cleanly until the final round.
Yes, the final round.
We met Aceh at the final.
And they're good.
Sadly enough, we lost at the final. There were 9 judges at the final. 4 voted for us, while 5 voted for them.
It's a shame. Big time. I'm ashamed of myself.
Why? Because we met Aceh already. Twice. Firstly at the Mock Round, and secondly at the 3rd Preliminary Round. We won both of them.
It gives us more burden and expectation from our coach and teacher that we should've won the finals as well.
But most importantly, I'm ashamed that I'm unable to perform maximally at the final.
I knew I could do better. I messed up everything in the final.
But a new hope sparked. All three of team Bali managed to secure positions at the Top 5 Speakers of NSDC, with Ian as the First, Bika as the Third, and me as the Fifth Best Speakers.
Remember when I told you about composing Team Indonesia? Well, the team will be selected among the 24 Best Speakers, not team.
Seeing how successful we are on -speaker-wise, it gives me a new hope. That we have a BIG chance of going to South Africa.
Disappointed? I am. Terribly.
I cried many times. When seeing IndoDebate, when chatting with my friends, when hearing other people's opinion about the final round. It broke me down.
But it won't change anything.
Therefore I'm going to keep on moving forward. I can't guarantee that I won't break down again, but I can guarantee that I won't back down.
We have gone too far, now the only thing we can do is to set our goal even further.
Therefore, I proudly present:
BALI
The Runner-Up and Best Speaker of NSDC 2011
Thank you for reading.
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